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Sunanda’s Thoughts

Sunanda was now pregnant. Her pregnancy brought about
many symptoms which were likely to reveal her secret. She
was petrified! She realised that her unwanted pregnancy
would become more and more evident as time passed and
that sooner or later, the world would know her secret. She
was mortified! How would she be able to show her face to
anyone, if it became known that she was about to become
an unwed mother. The thought of suicide crossed her mind.
But she decided to terminate her pregnancy. But she did not
know how to go about it. And who could take a decision on
this? Only her beloved Rupsen could have done so. She was
in a turmoil.

Suicide or Abortion?
The consequence of Sunanda’s night of uninhibited passion
was that she was pregnant. She now found herself in an
unenviable situation. She was so fearful of the consequences
of unwed motherhood, that she began to have suicidal
thoughts.

The game of attachment and aversion has unbearable,
unforeseen and unfortunate consequences! Sunanda was
seriously considering suicide as a means of saving her
reputation. She felt cornered and was aghast at the two
options that were open to her :

Suicide - She would be guilty of killing herself

Abortion - She was ready to destroy the young life that was
growing inside her.

In both cases, she was likely to come to grief.

The Evil of Selfishness
Rupsen had taken rebirth in the womb of Princess Sunanda.

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