Page 92 - Desire to Disaster

Appendix - 1 (Refer Page No. 62)

The poet composes a prayer to God :
"rS>“L$p¡ A‘“p dpr“ep, rs“ qv$“p lp¡ rR>“d¢ Ars R>¡l

‘f S>“ L¡$fu âusX$u, d¦ Å“u lp¡, A„s¡ r“k“¡l;
d¡fp L$p¡D “p S>Nsd¢, syd R>p¡V$u lp¡ rS>“hf S>Nv$ui,
âus L$fy„ Ab L$p¥“iy„, sy„ Ópsp lp¡ dp¡l¡ rhkphphuk;
A“„s rS>Z„v$iy„ âusX$u.'

Those who I thought were mine, betrayed me in a moment
I have learnt that love for others ends in grief
In this world, there is no one I could call my own
Other than you o Jinavara, lord of the world
Whom should I love o lord, you are my saviour
~ Ananta JinandashuPritadi

One’s immediate family deceives one :

O lord! Those whom I considered to be my own, deceived
me in a moment. In the end I realised that love for others is
bereft of any real commitment. O Jinendra Deva, you are the
lord of the world. I have no one but you. With whom can I
develop a bond of love? You are my only saviour.

When we ponder upon it deeply, we realise that we carry
with us the emotions of attachment, aversion, avarice, envy,
etc. as if they were our closest relatives. But at the end of the
day, they betray us. If attachment goes away, aversion takes
its place. And if aversion leaves, attachment replaces it. We
may envy someone today. But tomorrow, if he helps us fulfil
our goals, we begin to like him, praise him and look forward
to his company. What does this demonstrate?....The fickleness
of our emotions. Thus, attachment and aversion force us
into difficulties. They ensure that we bind huge amounts of
paapa karmas and have to suffer tremendous grief. Is this
not an illustration of the capriciousness of our emotions and

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